I compared my past feelings and relationships that didn't work out to DQ Blizzards today. It's something that I just realized it's weird I know but it's very true. They are yummy, nice and cold, and gives me the instant gratification and satisfaction that I'm looking for at that moment. Though it's great and all while I'm eating or "dating" the effects after is what gets me. The sugar rush, guilt from eating something so bad for me, and the calories that I will have to burn off later.
Max's relationship or whatever we had was something that I was craving but so not worth it in the end to have had now that things have ended the way that they did. Tim was just something I ate while bored and am now feeling the effects which I wish I've never had! Lessons learned. It's pretty sad though that I'm comparing them to food but it's the only thing I can compare to that's not worth doing...eating something that isn't healthy for us.
After what I've been through these past couple months have shown me a lot about myself and opened my eyes to how I've been letting people treat me.
I don't know if I regret anything with any of them just taking everything I learned but I'll leave the pain behind.
I wish to let go easier like this every time. I still get horrible feelings of pain from missing Max but it's no good for me. God needs to help me learn to let go and be able to leave someone that I care about without having that feeling of loss.
Tired and want to go home but think I will fall asleep on couch at my parents house.