It's been one week that I've let everything go between Tim & Max. I've been doing really well surprisingly. I can't believe how well I am doing. Thought I'm still not making the best of choices I feel like I'm getting a little bit closer where I should or at least in the right direction.
When does this all end? The searching for something more? I guess it's just something that you need to give up rather than it just stopping on it's own.

How hard is that? It's all that I've ever wanted...how can you give up your hopes and dreams. Yet I need to strive for others? How does that work?

Many moons have come and gone don't know why I'm still searching...I don't know anything at all. Who am I say to you love me I don't know anything at all. Who am I to say you need me.

Now you're a song I love to sing never thought it'd feel so free...
When did this become my life? When did I even notice anything different other than the ones I was wanting? Can't believe it's still taking me this long to figure things out. It's going to be four years since I've been trying to know better. Maybe I do realize but am afraid of what can really happen if I let go. The unknown is pretty scary when all you're use to is disappointments.

Now I know what's meant to be and that's okay with me.
Who am I to say? I don't know anything at all.