you're all I see come on baby let me and show me what this really is because something must have made you say that...what did I do to make you say that to me? Something must have made you so mad...what can I do to make you say come back to me?

I'll see is me being with him and happy. Why is that he pushes me away? He pushes me away then comes back like nothing happened.
I went there Sunday night and my world felt like all was back in it's place. I couldn't believe the happiness I felt and I how much I wanted to fall into his arms. I didn't want to leave and I don't think he wanted me to leave either. That's the best feeling ever. Though he wants nothing more than friendship being that close lying next to him smelling his scent of bubble gum & cigs while hearing him snore...ugh it takes my breathe away. I wanted him to roll over and hold me like he use too. He told me to stay & sleep, but I didn't! Why didn't I? I just walked out with him and watched him drive away

God I want it to be him, I'm done choosing and I know you're sick of it as well. Please bless him move in his life like you did Julian's but now you have the holy spirit already attached. MOVE!!! Nothing shall come against him I pray the blood of Christ on him nothing shall touch, harm or influence him in any way! I pray the hedge of thorns around him. He shall try to go this way or that but he shall find nothing and they can't find him and he will realize to go back to his first love which is YOU!

He needs to be loved and entrusted. No one has done that but one person who isn't even here nor is that person even close any more.
Everybody keeps walking in and out of his life and his family doesn't do much to help. I want to show him that I'm not letting go of him I will be there friend or not. I will do all that I can to make him trust me. If not me then you Father then all will become clear to him. He needs prayer and love...God help me be there for him.